i made someone angry and hurt. i am sorry, and i really want to make them happy again, but i can't but feel like i'm not going to change, not in the foreseeable future.
i feel scared of a possible future where i am stuck in a ouroboros of happiness, don't i wanna grow old with someone? i thoght that's what i wanted, but now im scared of it, of being unable to know what's out there, because there is so much more to see.
but maybe i could see it with you?